For U -:)

it always feels nice when people heed your complaints against them, when your anger bothers them, your sadness  your happiness does.... who are not judgemental even if you tell them the most embarrresing of fiascos, of your decisions and choices gone wrong... and you can throw your weight and tantrums and your crankiness around them, without the fear that they'd get really pissed at you... happily bear with all the shit you dole out to them... and then accept your uncalled for apologies... it feels gooeeyly good... 

And also taking time out for you from their busy schedule...even if that means replying to your messages at gaps of almost an hour, in which you are growing increasingly frustrated... but reply they do... taking in all your unreasonable whinyness... showing you reason from the unreasonable... making you laugh when you need to the most ... making you believe that its still not the end of the world.. to stop crying over your sordid life, because it is the only thing you can call your own and make the most of... Debating philosphies on 'love, friends & #' *wink*wink* till the wee hours of the night... dissecting each and every layer of the befuddlement all of the three lead to... and then calling you boring "ohh you know you put me off to sleep"... and then loling away... and then asking you to sleep because its already late... ha ha.. :)

It makes you feel so nice and bothered for, thank you so much for the feeling... I think putting all of it into words will be a herculean task for me... All I can say is I am gratified to have a friend like you...

 Ps:You're the hot to my chocolate, the grass to my ground, the cone to my ice cream. You're the petal to my rose and most of all you're the Best to my friend <3 .thoda zyada  hoo gaya ;) arre "Eno" hai ..na Gets to work in 6 seconds :-):-D .oki sign up now .. cya chaooo :)

PS: Haan yeh sach hai phele nazar mein he pyaar ho gaya tha :)

Being Introvert ;)

Oh Holaaaa ! beautifuls and gentleman welcome to reading hours "strictly speaking being an Introvert" it's not a post regarding lecture of life.We all  grown up we know what is wrong what's right. This post is all about recycling our thought process and it's always a better option from  recreating your life than recycling your life yeah it's like an agile method technique .So  sit back and have some snacks :)

On this note thought process need to be constructive as  shutting off the thought process is not rejuvenating; the mind is like a car battery-- it recharges by running  with add on   the Great Mr. Buddha has his lines as he said  "Happiness doesn't depend on what you have or who are you,it solely relies on what you think." 

But no one can stop or control your thought process or your thinking.You can think
anything you want. But that doesn't seem  to be the point. The thinking process has to be directed into a certain approach..not in accord with certain dogma,philosophy,or concepts.Instead,one has to know the thinker itself.

Time is good and it's a prime time now for each one of us as  the half quarters  is already started?Talking about time you know it is the  biggest factor in everyone's life. Times teaches you nothing is permanent yup not even your pain. Change and time both are like best friends when times changes ,life changes when time gives you left and right in runtime ,change will make you feel unstable in compile time.:)

The first paragraph you must be wondering what the hell this guy is putting his lecture on about "time" and "change".I know we all grown up to understand the beauty of time and change in life. Well we all know change is refreshing and so are  in every instances of life :D

Respecting time is as much importance than respecting yourself because if you do so,the time will respect you back.

Over the past few weeks I have been thought to must my emotion flows so here I am making my free hours to put into words with giving my thoughts and translate to your bytecodes ;) 


Yes once again Time has changed the thought process also which making me to put this positive note Have you remembered when did the last time you cried for your inner sadness which trembled you and in the same time shattered you to cream ?which you can't put into words than to give your pillow your space,on this note your pillow only knows what you must have gone  through that sad night. :)

Shit happens in life however that doesn't mean we will put our life into shits.When times says and you don't listen his voice you are in trouble my dear friend. we all have gone through this battle and those who let that go and moved on with that flow  they are the real winners.
I see guys spending weeks,monthly trying to make girl happy no offense though which I did the same in past :D I see girls waiting endlessly for their guys to call.
Is that all your life is about? For your lover to validate you?Or to 
make a relationship? well we are not going to write those javascript and jquery functions to make our life events works or to validate or persist our life with any "Object relational Mapping tools" :)

Instead, why not focus on yourself-working on your goals, learning something ,being a more positive person and helping others. Someday,we'll forget the hurt,the reason we cried and who caused us pain.We will finally realize that the secret of being free is not revenge, but letting things unfold in their own way and own time.After all,  what matters is not the first,but the last chapter of our life which shows how well we ran the race.

So smile,laugh ,forgive and believe, and love all over again. That will boost your self esteem far more than any lover ever could. Next time that guy or girl treats you badly,say thankyou.Say thank you for  reminding me that  I need to make myself focus of my life,not you.

PS: Sometimes we just have to turn on the silence of our life,As if it were the last light falling on a disturbed sea. when life gives you pain make that sadness to SUCCESS ! But without the Dark we would never see the "Stars" be star be a rebel :D

cheers folks in the while "KEEP CALM  be a recursive  than be an iterative"  ;)

Some bed time thoughts....

Some bed time thought which we realize it when we are all alone and spend much time with yourself. The word of wisdom's which we have learned over the years. I am sure you  have been come across to those expressing  moment of your life when we all have learned something. The latest one which I have learned is to survive in this world we have to "Work hard" and nothing just nothing that's it !

Some emotions flowss mates so time to read out and broadcast your feelings Just feel it ;)

 I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about 15 minutes. After that, you'd better know something.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do.

I've learned that it's not what happens to people that's important. It's what they do about it.

I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.

I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I've learned that it's a lot easier to react than it is to think.

I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I've learned that learning to forgive takes practice.

I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I've learned that I'm getting more and more like my grandma, and I'm kinda happy about it.

I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I've learned that you should never tell a child her dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if she believed it

I've learned that your family won't always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren't biological.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend someone is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that sometimes when my friends fight, I'm forced to choose sides even when I don't want to.

I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions.

I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I've learned that if you don't want to forget something, stick it in your underwear drawer.

I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I've learned that the clothes I like best are the ones with the most holes in them.

I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I've learned that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.

I've learned that there are many ways of falling and staying in love.

I've learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves, get farther in life.

I've learned that many things can be powered by the mind, the trick is self-control.

I've learned that no matter how many friends you have, if you are their pillar, you will feel lonely and lost at the times you need them most.

I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.

I've learned that the paradigm we live in is not all that is offered to us.

I've learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.

I've learned that although the word "love" can have many different meaning, it loses value when overly used.

I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.

PS: I've learned that the post should be short and small so that people should have patience to read out your thoughts ha ha :D #cheers guys and enjoy :) 

When your life is lost

Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves.” ~Henry David Thoreau

Another day, another morning, another alarm turned off. No motivation but to turn the pillow over to its colder side and lay there half asleep, unanswered questions gliding in and out of my mind.

This was how most of my mornings went in my last days of college. I had never been too motivated by the promise of college, even in high school, but it had always been set in my head that a college degree was my goal, my path to that elusive happiness we all crave.

It was my belief, and perhaps my parents’ as well, that I would head off to have the proverbial college experience and in the process I would become a lawyer or some sort of government official. That I would just wake up one day and say, “Aha! I know what I want to do for the rest of my life!” But that morning epiphany never came.

All that happened was a continuous cycle of partying, all night study sessions, followed by a complete and utter lack of fulfillment. So I moved back home with disappointed,  parents, and a deep sense of failure and confusion.

What it does mean is that if you feel lost, just take a deep breath and realize that being lost can be turning point of finding out who you truly are and what you truly want to do.

I still struggle, I still feel lost at times. I’ve cried and I’ve felt embarrassed. I’ve felt like a failure and I’ve felt pity from others and from myself. But I’m at peace with myself more and more every day and now I don’t even need an alarm to get up in the morning.

I just fall asleep thinking about the people I hold close to my heart and my music, and that brings me more excitement than anything I could have ever imagined.I miss one person in my life as her today will miss her tomorrow and forever.Perhaps this is the only heartbreaking story of my life which everyone comes across in a long deep short life. I miss those days but I have  to accept the fact that some special people enters your life as a temporary happiness and leaves behind all those special memories ..

Why everything in this life is so temporary ?.

Well life is amazing. I believe we’re here to find happiness, and when we do, to share it with everyone we meet.

It was one of the most trying times in my life simply because I realized that my life had been on autopilot.

Everything about my future was ambiguously assumed. I would get into debt by going to do higher degree and go college again, then I would be forced to get a job to pay off that debt, while still getting into more and more debt by buying a house and a car. It seemed like a never-ending cycle that had no place for the possibility of a dream.

I wanted more—but not necessarily in the material sense of personal wealth and success. I wanted more out of life. I wanted a passion, a conceptual dream that wouldn't let me sleep out of pure excitement. I wanted to spring out of bed in the morning, rain or shine, and have that zest for life that seemed so intrinsic in early childhood.

We all have a dream. It might be explicitly defined or just a vague idea, but most of us are so stuck in the muck of insecurity and self-doubt that we just dismiss it as unrealistic or too difficult to pursue.

We become so comfortable with the life that has been planned out for us by our parents, teachers, traditions, and societal norms that we feel that it’s stupid and unsafe to risk losing it for the small hope of achieving something that is more fulfilling.

“The policy of being too cautious is the greatest risk of all.” ~Jawaharlal Nehru

Don’t take me wrong though; taking a risk is still a risk. We can, and will, fail. Possibly many, many, many times. But that is what makes it exciting for me. That uncertainty can be viewed negatively, or it can empower us.

Failing is what makes us grow, it makes us stronger and more resilient to the aspects of life we have no control over. The fear of failure, although, is what makes us stagnant and sad. So even though I couldn't see the future as clearly as before, I took the plunge in hopes that in the depths of fear and failure, I would come out feeling more alive than ever before.

And I did. It took some time and some unwanted introspection, but out of the loneliness of my parents’ dark basement, I came out with a bright light of creativity and personal understanding.

I had always loved writing and telling stories, but the task of writing a book just seemed too daunting and cumbersome for a young man now who is no more a kid according to my parents point of view. So I began writing poetry, playing with metaphors and smiling at similes.

PS: It was one of days which keeps me back back here! to write something and to share my thoughts. Getting lost is something which can helps to find yourself .

#cheers all :)

A Journey to Bangalore :)

 Hello folks Namaskaram , ya its been a while now not been posted a new experiences as life is seamless these days and a  bit busy, but I’m back to share this one with u guys  ….

Train, yeah Train the although not the most comfortable means to travel has a different feel to it.. Staring into different blocks of people from different parts of the world was something  abyss, into an almost surreal world this is , the desire to free fall and talk and share u’r life stories , the meandering thoughts, the wish to run amok into their experiences , the train logy guys comes in berth for selling infinity times for selling different food items , the strange comfort of the unfamiliarity, life for those 28 hours is idyllic, not peaceful...  but different experiences to speak about with travelling and extraordinary  twin city Chennai and Bangalore .

Merina beach front place to enter by.

Chennai was a welcome break and had a good end to it as my train to Bangalore was late ... the merina beach making me miss company of a certain somebody... sigh, but chennai's behind me and i am back to the mundane and the run around... but somewhere down even the mundane is peaceful with my friend #Daipayan .  we took a bus and I find ppl of cheenai was on their homey land it was strange ya they can’t understand Hindi well although I tried a way to communicate with hotel guy with a glimpse talky face but he was unable to get my Hindi and then I tried bit of #Tanglish which is little of #tamil and #English and wink wink * * he he :)
 

using my Google dictionary must say the generation of smart phone making  ppl’s really smart thanks to google app stores.

The city is old as it looks a little modification from different statues and building roadways landscapes  and traffic typical "new madras" and the heat of summer those gentle breeze near by the seaside it’s a cool way to spend afternoon near by the sea soaking in the summer heat and happily spending couple of hours over there well really make you feel relax and refresh from u'r boring life  finally we returned to station took our next train to Bangalore .

when we landed as expected Bangalore was full crowds the mockery of traffics And at nights the all pervading dark city lights dazzling big big building offices software companies, the beauty of looking at the city below is beyond words, as if the stars have come down for you, and you are going to a world far off, away from the dreariness, away from things that have held you back... it definitely gets the poet out of me 

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Now Why do we call other people lucky? Why do we wish to be in their place in their moment of happiness and wish the contrary when a tragedy befalls them? I've learnt my lesson of never wanting to switch chairs or calling them lucky. Although  I miss my home “yaa kehte hai na kuch paaane ki liye kuch khoona padta hai “.. anyways this is what life is all about :)

Well, sorry I couldn't get the dreary tone out of this post. We live a disillusioned existence, we run after things we think will give us happiness only to realize how fate can screw things so badly... there's bitter after taste even after a job...
more experiences to come and more emotions well flows keep reading folks and share your experiences with me too #cheerssss J


ps: " This journey is like or this part of my life is the catches of my life are like salts on my raw wounds..."

Hawwi Yeh Saarrdi :)

December -the coldest season of year ..the month of happiness month of excitement & it Arrives the month of many expectation and the ravishingly ending to this year end ..which that vl be the end of this mixed excitin year of mine..many experience to share and from red's to blue's   friendship to relationships ..link up to break up everythin..the years last month is been my fav. month the eve of Xmass and the new year greetin  wishes and new new feelin of restorin of life again and snow fall the winter ,blankets cold N cough ,room heater The morning Fog the below temp. zero degree.. ohoo i love this winter yeh sardi mein baat he kuch aur hai.. and the journey of new resoultion and new routin again arrives.. what a season..:) 

month of festivals and parties ;)

 

my little cousin sis books captured snap

Some news to share ;) 

 frizzing nite guys heating out street workers

supreme court has ordered Indian states to provide adequate night ...
enjoy winter feel the heat !! and All my mates happy winter nite..and .have a frizzin nite ;):P:))

Well, life is been pretty blissful desdays thanks to that Alimghty who had all plans set up to illuminate my life with full of happiness dunno but for a while it seems lyk this..

i love this moment so this made me to come back here and share with u my precious feeling on goin rite now my mind ;)

Hawi yeh sardi enjoy the cool coolness and be happy enjoy thanda with some Garam Garam sumthing warm .may be a Coffee ;)
Wishing Everyone A Merry Christmas and A HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR 2014 J hey 2014  plz be Awesome \m/

PS: not making any resolution becz u know why becz I never follow it ...

google 2014 pix Happy new year all.

 anyways :D
Enjoy guys kal ka kya rakha hai Aaj jiyo be blessed and rock Great (Y).

Cyioo..

Growing Up in my city :)

Having lived all my life in   Bhubaneswar, memories with didi and friends  we have in a way shared our formative years together. From the decrepit and dusty look with just a few stores open to a complete makeover with huge billboards and glossier banners and the flyover with a thriving nightlife, I have seen it all.

As a kid I remember those walk downs to bake shop, for the extra cheese pizza and the end of the term treat of hot chocolate fudge for having scored an A-grade in my exams. And of the faux Santa, going all during new year times haha hehe, outside the ‘Modern  Bazaar’  market building ,departmental store, doling out small lil gifts to kids who passed by the shop. Market building or Unit 1 Haat was one of the first of its kinds in Bhubaneswar, and was known for its imported products, like the nice vegetarian food down the streets foods Dhai Bara's to  rasogola’s and well let me tell u there was many few restaurants in cities but my own fav. Priya Restaurant Masala Dosa south Indian foods,

One of the best Restaurants in Bhubaneswar”. Review of Priya Restaurant

 Make me  grilled , exotic herbs, olive oils, chocolates (other than the usual Nestle and Cadbury), Hershey’s Chocolate syrup etc. all unheard of at that point in time. For me the first time I ever saw the Chocolate syrup add was at the back of an old battered copy of an Archie’s comic brought from one of the second hand book stores in the precincts of the S complex, which ever also the source of my weekly supply of Enid Blytons and Nancy Drews, with yellowing pages and dog ears, with names of previous owners scribbled on them, rubbing shoulders with Mills and Boons, The Inscrutable Americans and what not. Priced at just a measly thirty five bucks they definitely came in cheaper than the first hand ones, with their cellophane film still intact on them, from ‘Fact and Fiction’, the only pragyan bookstore back then at center. It still is a surprise at how much those Bookstore owners (i.e. second hand books) know and the ease with which they pronounce the names of even Indian authors.

My childhood is fraught with memories of late night movie shows at kesari talkies and then  of coming all disheveled and bleary eyed and leaving all bright eyed and sometimes puffy, after sheding copious amounts of tears for the estranged lovers or the cancer afflicted hero, scrutinizing the movie to the minutest detail. Those were the days of the hand painted posters, of the lead actors canoodling and the villain smirking, with the sidekick running with a gun, all in gaudy fluorescent paints, before making way for the printed ones.
sometimes the drive back to the master canteen station with Rapunzel, with the music on high, karoaking to the songs, through the pot holed roads, .. its been beautiful... loosing myself to the deluge and the greenery, watching wet birds take flight, a scared wet mongrel run for cover... Could life get anymore idyllic feels great in evening time ...

 

courtesy pix- Bhubaneswar Diary.

As I entered my teenage years so did kesari, it now had Inox theater  in bhubaneswar, TGIF, Barista  big malls etc and later on came in the lounges and discs for the nouveau riche Indian middle class and their prodigal progeny. In the days of yore, it had the most eclectic of crowds thronging it, but as time passed like any reckless teenager, kesari has its darker stories to tell. Stories of call girl racketeering in one of those dodgy gullies leading into the complex, of gigolos looming and haggling with potential customers, of drunken brawls having gone awry and of drug peddling. Kesari also happens to be one of the favourite haunts for courtship, although I’ve also seen couples parting ways and the usual BPO crowd, the suave executives and gold chain jangling  businessman.

courtesy- Google 

So all in all, movies theater  like every other place in Bhubaneswar  is a microcosm of sorts, effervescent and dazzling with life and light, and the ‘relieving’ cow and scampering dog with street urchins providing the necessary comic relief. but this city is changed its lot look a like kolkata these days with many hotels ,malls ,cafe's ,CCD's ,Restaurant's food courts, ice cream parlous i guess everything u can find .   all this making this city look wonderful to watch in night time..and of course 

we all know its the city of temples :)

 Famous Ram Mandir ! courtesy - Snata Nayak pix 

Ps: this was the piece that was to come out in the Outlook city limits, in this week’s issue... but could not see the light of the day  :) cyaa..!