So where we
are and now it’s the last of June , aah
ya things have started going for me in my way..and mostly its lords month “jai
jagannath “
Last month
was been pretty mix up it’s been while I
have started taking so matured decisions in my life..yoo its pretty interesting
I must say J
well life is been good for a while now I have been now back to my normal spaces
so call happy oriented being so alone and lonely what I always supposed to be
and love to be.. things have changed little bit from a curious unstable guy to
now a relaxed person i’m getting what I want to do.. I’m
just so clear about what things are moving on my life …well june is been quite
a month for arrivals for Rainss ohh ya rainy
season arrived my best I don’t know I just LOVE rains because its just after
the bullshit Summer I hate summer its
where the atmosphere was burning out and
every where people were getting pissed due to that thundering summer earth was so heat up …for me it was
relief personally becz I can’t take
summer its soo hot to adjust to this atmosphere well-being an Indian kid I’m unable becz last month or soo
the earth was burning like I don’t know no words to describe the sweat and pain
heat yak.. season , where its unable to adjust ..i’m frankly.. I’m happy
monsoon arrived..and now the surviver Tip
tip barish . I love the first rain just
after the Summer , I LOVE RAIN!! The dark sky, thunder, and the smell!..RAINY
DAYS make me HAPPY!
Well last
month was been perfect for me Rainy days are perfect for cuddling up with a
warm blanket, my laptop, a good book, the remote and a nice cup of something
warm! Soooooote raho aur soone doo dosto enjoy the rest its all sleep and sleepin..and hanging around
with my best of buddies chilling with them how to deal life next ,talking to
the most likeable person in my life who
can understands me and my feeling and taking out some tips from them ..
A break from the life that I am leading... Probably
things ain't that bad, or but you know what they aretill you see them on your
face like some really disgusting face pack... Wish i could write a bit of
poetry... but if wishes were horses, I'd be the stable owner... everything
eludes me... marks, love, luck, poetry, good sense blah blah... the ability to
talk utter shit alll the time, to sound witty, to sound profound... god damn
everything... hmmmmm...
The pre placement talk in our collage and seminar will be
been attended with in 2 months all IT companies top most companies in our
country oho gives me the feeling of being from outter space, with the loud talk
on some gibberish computer language and how my fellow batchmates have figured
things out so well in their lives and ofcourse their pompous asses just fart
their way through the ramble. Looks like “yeh bhend pe sabse piche hum khade
“
So lets come to reality now..well Life has not been
smooth for me. will that what life it is for every one.and its all about
I have one chance to repay back my last sem hopeless performance is to perform
in this sem..will this will make me some relief & I’m desperate time to
perform..its high time now. Not taking stress not taking pain and not taking
some much of negative from this sem.. I need to work hard simplest thing I can
do than to think about my future..! hope I would get a placement and makes my parents happy..at least well I
think I’ m not the best of son for them provably in my point sometimes they
always have high expectation from me.. more than my Big sis where all parents do and compare becz obivious
they took soo much of pain and tells us “bête bhaago and compite else u vl be
last “ so true words ..without my
parents what I will do I can’t figure our really ..yaa they have expectation so
high from me.. why I don’t know perhaps they believe on me that one day there Son gona makes their Dreams comes alive
and what effort they have put me to be in rite now in my life will be fruitful
one day I just hope I will , well more than me getting inner happiness or
getting any success in my life I just want to see my parents at least happy for
me ,I have seen those hard days I have seen what my parents have did for me,
what effort they have spared for their entire life to make their Son an
engineer , honestly I just want to see there smile on their faces .and in my
salary I want to give them treat and yaa to my lovely friends too . god please full
fill my dream I have never asked u anything so violently than this..i want to
see them happy..and we all want to see our parents happy isn’t and some people
thoughts that’s this century is a careless dumb ass who don’t care I mean we
don’t care about our parents and their happiness “ I swear if get that man I
will kill him/her I will ask what supposed him/her to put that statement to us
..its very harsh ,we do care we do love our parents ..who said it? we don’t..
yaa I can’t count on my parents effort giving me quality
education full filling all my needs and giving me their best of guidance and telling in every sphere of my
life that’s what’s right and what’s wrong
in life . well that’s every parents does all will say but I had seen
what my parents have did for me , we belongs to simple background a middle
class Indian family soo I had seen the value of money of budgets yaa its been a
while I had seen it all now hope I could pay them back at least just to say
there son is having a job now and will live his life when U’re also not around
with them one day , he is matured now to take his decision in his own .i want
to prove this to my parents friends hope everyone wants this .
well placement is coming
I hope -"Ummed pe duniya kayam hai" -God will be Kind to me if not for me but for my parents I really
wanted them to see happy it’s enough now after 1 year life will take another
turn straight to highway I suppose where
its single way there will be no double
side.no looking back and no return . and there will be no stopping for me..
soo for this I have to keeping focusing on just trying to
figure out what next turn my life ,I have to work hard .yaaaa !
ps : If we want to have any hope for any situation we just
have to do present favorable for that
situation for that much close so that we can able to hope for the next to
come..and for that’s 2 words comes “Work
hard “
if we want to achieve anything in life for yourself or
for any one then just focus on ur’e Aims
and work hard , success is yours – Sachin Tendulkar :)
I hope this Rain
would bless me for my future and to
everyone their life’s and those who are reading this at
least “wana say god is kind and will
make your life blissful for sure if we believe on what we do and on our self lines by my maa .
Lord jagnnath will bless all and its rath yatra time now
comes its today ..wishing every one a
happy yatra and blissful one ..:) :)
JAGANNATH
SWAMY.....................
soo I will be
loving this romantic season of tip tip barish till I fall ill so far so good
for me till then cyaaa.keep enjoying this season and keep focusing .
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