An "Unpleasant Feeling"-Pain

 Unpleasant Feelin...

I felt a stab of pain in my chest when left everyone. I thought it was chest “congestion “,But No amount of ginger juice could make my pain go away .It still there .. “Aadrak ka kaaada bhi piaa per woh Dard Nai gaya.. Aab bhi hai..”

There is a saying Too much attachment too much acceptance too much expectation will surly gives us one thing that’s “Pain”  

If we define “PAIN” - Pain is a feeling triggered in the nervous system. Pain may be sharp or dull. It may come and go, or it may be constant. You may feel pain in one area of your body, such as your back, abdomen or chest or you may feel pain all over, such as when your muscles ache from the flu. According to the concept of physiological pain "how much we hurt as a human being. It is mental suffering; mental torment. But can’t get why ..can’t we go through this life .. my take Life is kooky.. life is kinky... and kicks the shit outta you, I realised...."  but how if the pain will be there how can we go through its very easy to take it lite and have chilling and peaceful life but in reality when life gives U Damn..U can’t do anything rather than healin this sentimentalism..

But if we  talk about our emotional pain and see if we can find a way to get through it. I do’t get it why we suffer  Some people cope with emotional pain by becoming withdrawn, depressed or sullen. Others present their emotional pain outwardly by becoming louder or more extraverted. Some cope by talking, over eating, fasting, drinking, self-harming, becoming violent or over-working and yet others cope by seeking attention or affection.  No matter what you are going through, or what coping mechanism you are employing, you can be sure that someone else has already been through it before you and found a solution. Your solution is out there. I guess will  find it together afterwards may be one some other post.!.

 “One word
Frees us of all the weight and pain of life:
That word is love.”
― sophocles .. this pain has no solution perhaps being confuesed..and the biggest hatin point of my life is being in these feelin.so called Love..Anyways..

So here Im in Btw my life ..I don't think political correctness to be the best thing to squirm yourself out of a confrontation and of course letting your dear gf 'momming' or good friend  you around such a good idea. I mean I know most people have their best interests in mind, but please I like some time out of my own. I don't always like to have a fake smile just so that you don't ask what was the reason for the lack of dental display. I like being sad when there is nobody to ask me the reason for it. I have my own messed up head to handle can u please move away from the muck. Probably i am a loner in the garb of being this jabber wok. No matter how much you try to cheer me up, its only when i choose to be happy that I become one. I dissect and dissect and read in between lines, go so much in to the details, the most off hand of statements are as acerbic as they can get. Sigh.

And you know, always doing the right thing does not mean life will spare you its screw up. Life is a whore, it belly dances to your God-forsaken luck. And expects you to enjoy it like a connoisseur, hold your drinks up and savour every moment of it.

Been lazying around the entire weekend, been on facebook for almost 24X7, but am usually offline. Sifting through random pics, its such a bad idea. Listening to songs my lil sis recommends, she's come a long way since 'Rowdy Rathore'. Infact I did not have such refined tastes back when i was her age. But the songs are such a welcome. so life's been pretty much the same. Meeting a dear friend of mine today.

Ps : Hoping it I will make myself cheers me up.by “”expressing” myself more in everything than to be a silent Roger..! All i can say Want the immortal feeling of being #Peace in life.. #cheers all cyaoo..

"I should've been chasing you
I should've been trying to prove
That you were all that mattered to me

I should've said all the things
That I kept inside of me
Maybe I could've made you believe
That what we had was all we'd ever need"


 - Lady Antebellum "all we'd ever need"

Here comes the Diwali Timess.....-:)

Before i start i my wish to all ...:)
Dear all who ever is readin to post, Wish u and your family a very happy diwali & prosperous new year. May God fulfill all your wishes in wealth, health & happiness in your life.
May lights triumph over darkness.
May peace transcend the earth.
May the spirit of light illuminate the world.

more vivid more colors to everyones life..Hey god please..bless us.

my luck... and my God-forsaken life... Ohhoo what a relief now my god forsaken mid sem is over now.Just before the Diwali .The fragrance of sweets already fills the air the vibe i'm gettin.. Very soon pretty boxes packed with laddoos, barfis and the choicest delicacies will start piling up at homes. Diwali, after all, is incomplete without sweets.As we know Diwali or ‘festival of lights’ is a grand festival, celebrated by every Indians all over the globe. Apart from wearing new clothes and decorating ones home, people send Diwali gifts to their loved ones to mark the festival momentous wishes everyone a properous and may god lighten everyone life with full of colors and happiness with something to cheer at the end of 2012 ..and to me tooo..:)
good to see the happy faces and smiles that reflects on my buddies faces..

But then  I bounce back again in my life , coz life leaves you with no other option but to trudge along even if it means that your sole wears out in the long run up to the coveted life that we all dream off... Such is life they say... where the dissatisfaction and the disgruntlement keeps you going and at times just takes a toll... marks they say are small things but are they not the statistics that dictate the terms of your life momentarily... probably i am a 'marks-starved' kid... and these things definetly do get me worked up... especially when I see myself being treated as a lesser mortal, all for no fault... Good sense is conspicuous by its absence... and depression way too ominous...

Sometimes you do wish to become oblivious to certain things of your life, pull the blinds to certain aspects but you cling on to what hurts you the most... the sadist and the cynic laugh out loud... things go bad once and you start picking on old wounds again, forgetting that you'l still carry the scar... and everything bleeds and singes... I do at times forget all that holds me down in my life, and prepare to fly only to remember that I need the earth too... Probably right now I sound all mixed up and dont make sense... but that is how muddled up i am... A precarious case of nerves, who lives on the extremes and still looks for ambivalence...
ANYWAYS ..and i'd better start studying OF UPCOMIN placement on drives...thermo of all....made me insomniac once again....just hoping i do well....till then chao....
College has in many ways made me a whole lot wiser in terms of dealing with people and taught me there's no place for a simpleton in this world....i could actually write a whole book on the lessons learnt in college....will do that later....but College is slowly coming to an end... Everything cherished is going to go far to make way for new... probably material pursuits will replace them... take the intangible place but if only they'd satisfy me... If only i'd not miss the people who form part of my life now...thanks for everything if i exist or not that i dunno guys but whenever u vl able to miss me just read my blog post.."Hum rahe ya na rahe per humara good wishes "humesha rahega aap sab dosto ke saat..dunno what life will come next but this the part of life i want to enjoy again and again with u mates..where the endless and seamless story goes on and on the endless nites.caffeine addiction,gargantuan syllabus and laughs the "HIGH FIVEs "the guitars the masti's  ..somosaas.. Dk bose ;] gaaliyaa won't be dere after this year ends..
koi baat  nai end bhala tha sab bhala..i we'd be just caught adjusting to the vicissitudes of my life..i want this time to stop, stop forever... for all my petty quibbles about college life, it has given me a lot and it'l all end... and memories are all that'l be left... but .

PS:Life is journey  we have to goo and on on and on..thats way zindgayi ek safar hai :)  kyunki dosto ke bina no Zindgayi..:)

enjoy the next weekend with
"Jab tak hai jaan" and sky fall ek saat cheers :)

some people born with a silver spoon in their mouth, while some with none at all

this the post is all about my morning saga's the traffic jams and narrating scences sharin with u all  what i had seen while in traffics . this which i want to ask to all friends .. To this I question 'why are some people born with a silver spoon in their mouth, while some with none at all??' all about the rich and poor childrens in streets ..

 

Life is so unfair... and is always meant to be is one of the ultimate truths of life... other than the 'dust to dust, ashes to ashes' philosophy ofcourse (so what if you have asthama, everybody bites the dust and some just snuff away...)Just the other day, while going to collage, my bus gets stuck in a traffic jam early morning near one of my cities poshes schools (wonder if they have a beckham school too...sorry for the lame attempt at humour).

So like always to me the traffic jam looks like a microcosm, brimming and overflowing with life, with lil' kids in nursery dressed in cute pants and barbie tshirts, colorful hairbands (wonder where have the frilly frocks have gone, with puffy sleeves, gone are the days *sigh*)... With older boisterous boys back slapping each other, the geekier ones looking all so dishevelled and out of breath...and the other kind with a detached lookon their faces nonchalantly ambling into the school gates, the honking and shouting all white noise to their ears.. there are the other classifications too, but let me keep my Linnaeus spirit out of it, and getting down the prettier part of the human race, girls!! The strange thing about girls is that irrespective of their age groups they can all be generalized and yet each one of them continue to hold something so inherently unique in each one of them, so I guess I'll just stick to the generalisation...

The girls come in swinging their pony tails, swaying their mane with the ubiquitous tic tacs cutely adorning their hair with kohl lined eyes, cute pink orange flowery bags with humungous number of keychains hanging, singing jingle bells irrespective of the month, whispering into each others ears, smirking at the dork walking by or the portly nerd of their class. And what is common to all of them is the slam banging of car doors (yup here comes the leftist).. and in the midst of all of the sleek sedans, comes a spluttering scooter with five people completely jam packed, looking like loaves of bread is a severely squashed packet… 

Life’s God damn unfair… and of course there are the car-pooled or rather the auto pooled auto rickshaws with bags and bottles hanging out of them, with kids sitting on each others laps..all bright and happy, laughing their heart out in that ramshackle coughing rickshaw… If fates been in a rather benevolent mood, you have a maruti omni as your messiah you are lucky enough to reach school with ironed skirts and your canvas shoes still gleaming white, redeeming your pride in school. And ofcourse, you have school kids taking the public DTC buses, wading across a swarm of office goers.. Looking out the window while stuck in yet another of those traffic marmalades , I see kids of construction workers and streetside slums,

 with matted yellowing hair, runny noses chapped lips pooping by the road side and some still fast asleep on that tatterd piece of blanket, while their mothers make themselves busy lighting the make-shift chulhas and the men in the family bathing by the roadside.. And some urchins running around with a stick and a deflated tyre and some with a mongrel tugging at their tattered frocks and pants, happy with the lives they'd been blessed with.

Where have the kids gone wrong to be" deserving such a fate and where have they gone right??'

And will they ever get a chance to correct the wrongs o jr will the wrongs done to them ever be corrected?'

we all are equal atleast in education matter no poor no rich education should be given to every child in our country .its not the government ..its we the citizens of country should take inisatives to make our land most improved literacy rate compared to other other lands..
We all believe in the all powerful and all knowing God, but after looking at these sights i question him too. It is incredulous to say its all in the good karma, when all the mercies and cruelties are here right in front of you. My worries about my singledom make be cringe at my shallowness and how fickle minded I am and continue to be.. How utterly thankless we all are cribbing about things which can be easily done with out.. on that i sign off...

Being Busy ,Ironically ?why take a breath being alone.. ....

Being Alone ...makes us more powerful broadcast our thoughts.in the last post i shared about "for u you're not alone"well ..thanks for all ur feedbacks guys..which makes me feel to share sumthin ..not fully but partically oppsite to last post..don't compare that its a random flowss..okies  alone what makes our life productive.. here we goo just a small thought ....
In our daily lives, we strive to and take pride in being busy. We like to see ourselves multi-tasking and bask in the glory of productivity when someone acknowledges us. We live with other people (whether family or friends), work in teams and do almost everything in groups. Or we always have our mobile phone, some book or movie, or the ever ubiquitous internet with us for company. Staying alone is what we end up thinking as a waste of time.

But man is essentially an individual. He was born alone and will die alone. He does talk and interact with other people in a number of ways but in a very primitive and biological way, man is essentially individual. Sitting alone for some time should not be unsettling or unnerving, like it sometime gets in our lives. In fact, giving some time only for ourselves could be one of the most enriching experiences ever if one tries to do so. And it can solve a lot of our problems. Problems which arise only because of our inability to stay alone with our thoughts.

If one can be content while sitting alone and don’t feel (or act on) the urge of checking what your friends are doing on social media or the urge to go out and shop and eat your favourite burger or pizza, a lot of our problems can just melt away. It can break the chains and bonds of normal life and we will longer need to be constantly busy just to match up with our peers and unnecessary comparison with others. Being busy, ironically, is the place where all our problems and stress arise out of.

If you think man is a social animal and cannot survive individually, think again. Man is not fish, and from time to time, he can (and should) get away from water (daily life). We will not die like fish if we spend some time out of water (alone). In fact, we can cherish our individuality and come back to our daily lives refreshed and replenished. A day spent alone from time to time will reduce the chatter of everyday life. You learn to listen to your thoughts, be aware of the different urges to be busy you will have, and then just let them be. And let me tell you, it is not easy to be alone. It can be very unsettling at first, and you can find many reasons to ‘do‘ something. But don’t let your ‘wanting-to-be-productive’ side deny you of your right to spend some time alone.

After some time, you learn to enjoy the quietness of things. You learn to notice the sounds of the birds chirping and the wind blowing. As the clutter of daily life melts away, you are left just with your inner thoughts. At this time, you will find yourself talking to yourself. It takes time getting used to, and you can always ignore your inner voice, but you must listen to it. Some quietness can leave with you with contentment, a new perspective, and a calmer attitude. In short, it can be amazing.

Solitude also makes us realize that our life is a blank slate with nothing in it, and it is our choice what we really want to paint it with. Our life is not about the tasks and the meetings we have all through the day which look unavoidable, but is about finding ourselves. Staying

alone teaches us to be content with nothing and realizing that we can paint our life canvas the way we want. What would you call a person who is so busy reaching the destination that he never stops his car for refuelling?

Now what would you call the person who is so busy living life that she misses replenishing her own soul? We all need this refueling exercise of staying alone, and then we can take our life’s car wherever we want. So try sitting alone for some time, and just be quiet. Or perhaps take a long walk alone (like I do). Maybe start with small periods of time, and then increase the duration as you feel more comfortable with it.
ps: Just watch your thoughts in solitude but don’t act on them. Just listen, watch and be content. And you will soon realize you never needed anything more!

For you are not alone…

Just a long post but with full of emotions and I’m sure if u read whoever this is reading out  go with ur full of emotions u will get the soul out of it ..so sit back and enjoy this glimpse of emotions speaks . its all about your “specials”

 “Akele Hum kuch bhi Nai”  Alone we are nothing

among thousands ...one traveler.

five who gave me courage one who gave me shelter,

one man who had faith in me.

one girl whom i loved .

when no one knew me ,even then there were my four friends..

these relationships are what keep me going. they are the ones I talk to. if all get connected only good can come out of it ...!

 reminds me of superstar Srk getting inspired alone we are nothing ..this post is all..The person who motivate/inspires millions of people from all over the world is featured in Airtel Ads with his own life story.the Shahrukh khan Inspirational Ads by Airtel India. SRK is India’s Youth role model from last 2 years beating as poll conducted by Hindustan Times .

Here we goo…just a small poem in is my second foray into the unknown territory, for me that is, of poetry. So please leave your comments and brickbats on how you found the poem:-]

Another day has gone
I’m still all alone
How could this be
You’re not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you’re far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we’re far apart
You’re always in my heart
But you are not alone

‘Lone, ‘lone
Why, ‘lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you’re far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we’re far apart
You’re always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I’ll come runnin’
And girl you know that I’ll be there
I’ll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you’re far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we’re far apart
You’re always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you’re far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we’re far apart
You’re always in my heart

For you are not alone…

Ps: my life like my writing has become hackneyed. This one also soon goin to be hackneyed .anyways .who cares…

As we know this life is totally fickle and unpredictable we can’t  been except anything  what next stores  and to assume anything in life it’s a biggest mistakes u doin begin knowing what’s the truth still assuming …why so why we every time  knowing the truth sometimes waits and still our heart and mind differs alwaz I didn’t get .Is its the mechanism of our human body prevails or  our system is been auto handled by that  almighty with demo anti  virus installed  which always we need to update ..!

Will coming to the point dunno what made me fill write but its just a  emotions which been inside and I feel to put this and share with u all..

Everytime we move on , and get motivate our self to move on ..we also know this life is not about  moving alone ,been obvious talking about our fellow buddies of life “the fav”. ..why we humans alwz make choices being honest ,me too why  have any one wondered why only a few from many classmates get closer to u ?

Out of many peoples I mean 7 billions stay in this world I guess rite ..still our heart wants to have her/him with us together  why?

Out of whole places in this world…whole universe why we always we like our only room  and get fill comfortable ?

Out of whole album why only few snaps get longer stare with big smiles whenever we watch it ?Out of so many colors only a few are counted as favourties .

Have anyone wondered ? well  actually its only because  “only few things and people are destined to reach  the string of heart and make life beautiful”..

But have anyone wondered if that beautiful things or beautiful person is out of reach ?sometimes and being busy we must have come across many huddles of life and must have comes nearer to this term “BUSY” so what is it ?

Busy ? Everyone says Life is busy ? Im busy .. and when we are trying to call phone call someone if he/she is busy with someone  the network subscriber  says what –the person you are trying to reach is currently busy with someone ? Aapke jiske saat samparak karna chahte hain woh abhi vistha hai kripya thodi deer baar call kare ..plz try after some time  .

I know how it must be feeling  sometimes when we really want to have a talk and wants the support of that particular person than out of millions in this world ..and  if we have enough patiences we will try to wait but if still after sometime we will again give a “call” talking about being busy.. if its again show busy …then what else we will think the heart will deep into doubtful mode feeling well get shattered ,or that  beautiful person will soon turn into the devil  wrost and bad to us and we will start thinkin every alternatives every thing in a negative way why anger speaks haan yeah it happens  ??????????

Have anyone wondered this ? I felt it its  just becaz that favourite  person just owns ur  priorities more than anyone else in dere life…

Soo Giving more importance and more priorities in life than to u that’s call busy …

Not using brief want to elaborates ;-] …I  know some of buddies after readin to this much might be fellin boredom ohooo c’om  but read it try to get this emotions ..it happens with everyone… in the meantime have some coffee with snacks reloaded ..:-D

Life never seems to be  the way we want it but we live it in the best way we can but what if our best ppl are not with us anymore …this life is not being alone and for your u’re not alone ..well its  not a cycle of one tiers  and one peddle its all about that fav. Person in life out of millions that’s fav . buddies than any other buddies existing in ur life …

Life is all about being connected and to give equal importance’s .

My bottom line is we all know life is busy in all aspects as everyone have there  stories in acted in theres life and being busy is  in there  own self but don’t ignore them by which   there may be a set back due to u I mean associates and partners friends negligence ..if anyone wants u to stay back with u and feels happy to talk with u share dere any secrets any happiness any sad moments give them more importances give them your time there is nothing more important than who wants u for help and who always gave u importances  throughout your life soo baat karoo ..kyunki  Aamir khan said in satyam jayate –baat karne se baat banti hai LOl ha ha ;]

Well jokes apart ppl who aren’t  not getting that a little importance being liking dere fav. Persons a lot this one is dedicated for them and yes thatway the  delay and obstacles in general pursits on them.

At times , a sense of insecurity is been predominant on them only becz of not getting that sweet importance soo my dear friends alwz try to love the dear ones who ever may be from parents to your favorties  in your life ..alwz support them   ..

Life is all about sharing and giving same priorities to each other and if busy then atleast say little busy will be coming to u soon.. and im sure  they well never disturb u in ur mean time..if busy with calls  then  calls them  back  and say Im calling u after sometimes… well this is call understanding  and little small small things makes a huge difference in life and we people says after all what went wrong why we are apart .. Im happy im surrounded by not one favorties many fav who alwz gives me equal support guidance’s how much I do to them  :]

I know its going little filmy don’t be bored well its not so bored than those same daily soaps :)

Statuary warning – Don’t compare this post with my others post this one From an ordinary man with  an ordinary post  . just  a simple thought with little philosophy added mixture of masala emotions  using little bit of being sarcasm;] .:)

Ps: Lastly  There is no perfect life but we can fill with perfect moments by sharing and enjoying our  mutual understandings  ,as life is too ironic to understand it takes noise to Appreciate silence and Absence  to value presence..and when that person won’t be with u that time  we all fell the value of that person ..soo  for your ur not alone .  we all know but  why we don’t get ..may  be that’s life all about :-]